Breaking my unhealthy relationship with food
Over the last 2 years, I have always been tracking my macros and counting calories. Even during my vacations, I had rough estimate of how many calories I consumed. I meal prep'd and packed my meals every week. I stopped focussing on micronutrients. Veggies are too low in calories. I might as well eat another bite of meat. Fruits are high in sugar. I would rather eat a protein bar than fresh fruits. In Jan 2020, I rebelled against myself. I wanted to eat every dessert and junk food possible. I ate even when I was not hungry. I saw my abs slowly disappear and I had gained half a kilo. I developed Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS). My body was not happy with the junk I put in. I was depressed and anxious for most part. I knew I had to do something about this. Initially I thought this is because of my 4 weeks of binge-eating. Actually, this is because of my 2 years of constantly being hard on myself about food and feeling guilty for an occasional cheat meal. I have decided to t...